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Dealing With Self-Doubt
How to recognize self-doubt and the 4 practices to rebuild confidence when it inevitably wavers.
Since my return to the Netherlands eight months ago, my confidence has returned, too. My trust in myself, others and the world at large has expanded. This resurgence feels natural and nourishing, like a dry, drought-stricken river regaining its currents and flow.
Then, last week, my confidence wavered. A log blocked the river; rainfall at higher elevation dwindled. The flow didn’t fully disappear, but it slowed. And it was immediately apparent.
Signs I’m doubting myself
I grasp for external validation.
To some extent, we are always in search of external validation. Humans are social creatures and it’s natural for us to seek acceptance from those we love and admire. However, when I’m lacking confidence, my sense of self-worth loosens. No longer centered on my own self-love and self-acceptance, it starts to hinge on how I think others perceive me.
Does she think I’m stupid / ugly / incompetent?
Does he think I’m doing this wrong?
Do they think I’m enough?
